Fail again.

Argh....

I can't even concentrate studying...

read 2 paragraph. and I already start thinking about you...

I keep reminding myself endure the pain...

I can't... I really can't...

I feel like breaking my promise and message you normally like what I did everyday...

I CAN I DO? GOD PLEASE SAVE ME BEFORE I EVEN END MYSELF INFRONT OF THIS COMPUTER.

I am not going too crazy yet, my mind is somehow still controlling my heart...

But I can almost feel the explosion.. It's cornering me...

Forcing everything just go boom, everything destroyed..

Love is like suffer when you don't get what you want...

People will go insane... do something they even never do before...

God is this how you will punish me for being a nice guy?

I try not to be a bad guy... not to play with girls since I was born...

Because you tough me that getting a girl isn't easy...

Then you gave me a chance... I had once.... but I ruin everything that time...

I regretted and I changed....

Still you want me to be forever suffering from this?

Ah.... what to do... I don't know.. perhaps you the one who is reading this could tell me?


Now I can feel my heart is bleeding, It's call pain. The blood will keep on flowing until someone stiches it for me.

I don't feel like living anymore, I don't like this sorrow at all.
I don't like to die either, I would prefer sorrow if I could have.

Someone please give a knock at my door and stab me on my heart. I will be grateful. At least I don't die suicide way.


I guess this is a new place to let me "live" for now.